As many of you know I am a reader. I love books. What can I say? Reading a new book is like learning a new language, a new accent, a new person. I just recently finished one and moved on to another and a thought came to me. Books are like people in that each has a voice, soul, a way of speaking. I find that sometimes it takes a few chapters for me to learn the new “person.” I have to learn their style of wit and humor. I have to adapt to their accent or style of speaking. It is kind of becoming friends with a new person you learn all their likes and dislikes. There are some books that I instantly get along with and others that I have to work at the relationship. Makes me wonder how much of the author is in the story. Is it just made up or is it really a part of them.
Acceptance of others and yourself isn’t an easy thing. It is difficult to accept your current place in the world. We all want bigger and better things and quite often we want the things other people have. The hardest part is just been content with what you have at this present moment. To not get caught up in the wants and desires of all those around you. If you can accept yourself it will be easier to move on in life. You might not be where you want to be but for this moment that is ok and work towards your goals. Keep that in mind when you pine after things you don’t have. It will change the way you act towards everyone around you.
Today out of the blue the person who I consider as my ex-wife texted me. She asked after me and told me she missed me. She told me I was her everything; with out me she was nothing. And as any heart sore person knows this was water to a desert. I couldn’t tell her how much it hurt to talk about these things. How much I wondered if she was missing our friendship or just my company. As we talked more I began to wonder what these words mean to her. They must mean something different to me. Where do I fit in? Does she understand my feelings? Do I? It isn’t an easy thing. Humans are so poor in communication. No promises were made and we left things as they are. I never really thought I would feel this way about another person especially a girl. (For more about her click here) I am at a loss for what to do. I suppose the best thing is to carry on as always until something different happens.
In this crazy world that we live in it is so hard to remain humble. It is something I have always struggled with. I know the more humble I stay the better choices I make and the less drama in my life. If I could go back to my younger self that is something I would tell me. Remain humble. If we could all be a little more humble I feel that the world would be a bit brighter.
A bit behind because all my traveling and moving prepping.
Sparrow by Mary Doria Russell; This was one of those books I grab because it was on some list (Arthur C. Clark award) and I randomly read one here and there to see if they are worth all the hype. This is a very interesting and well written story. It focuses around a Jesuit priest who travels to a new planet and comes back a broken man.
The Lost City of the Monkey God by Douglas Preston. As my favorite author publishes I read before the ink dries. This is a nonfiction story about an archeological dig in Honduras. It holds the same wit and character of his normal fiction story that you have to remember that its a true story.
Golem and the Jinni by Helene Wecker I love stories about travel and adventure. This isn’t the Tomb Raider but it has a lot happening. The characters are well defined and developed. Details about historical events and places seem well researched. I really enjoyed reading this story.
Wow, I missed a Sunday Meditation. I am so sorry. I know that many of you follow my Sunday Posts. So this belated post is about taking a moment and organizing your week. I am in the process of moving. I have a lot that my mind is trying to figure out—with or without my consent. My mind takes off and starts thinking about what get packed in what box. This goes here and that there. All that mind work makes me tired and forgetful. I have started a list now. And I work things off the list. This way I don’t get overwhelmed about everything that needs to get done. Make sure to find out what works for you. There is no reason to get overwhelmed. Especially if you plan and prepare. 🙂
So much has happen in the last few weeks. I have gotten two, possibly three offers to transfer. All my desire to leave MN and now I don’t have time. In the last three weeks I have traveled half the east coast and tramped around DC. Waited by the phone as my sister was over taken by one of the largest hurricanes to date. Spend too my time with my mom but appreciate her all the same. And still not enough time.
But there is always time to take in the moments. It only takes a moment. I thought about it when I noticed so much change in the leaves since I’ve been gone. In the smell of rain. In the love of my cats.
So if cats aren’t your thing that’s totally fine. If its cars, video games, a breeze, or whatever makes you realize that when your life seems to fall apart you can focus on these tiny moments and see so much more. Find your peace. It will help in more ways then you will ever know.