I recently watched a show that made mention that we forget the bad and polish the good of people we remember. Often times we are shocked when we remember something bad. This is OK. Its OK to forgive the bad and remember the good. It helps us carry on. So keep that in mind they were human and made mistakes but that’s OK. Someday someone will think back on you and only remember the good.
So we just got hit with two Nor’easters within about a weeks time. I have to say it can stop snowing. Nearly 30 inches of snow is a lot by anyone’s standards. I was really hoping to be able to wait until next year to by a snow blower. Its crazy….global warming pft! Well I have painted my new library since I couldn’t go outside. So that’s good. Now I need to unbury my storage trailer with my books in it.
Well it is done. I have signed and moved into my new house. I must say that didn’t get any warm fuzzy feelings. I remember when I bought my first horse, I almost fainted with excitement. When my brother graduated I cried with joy. However, the signing of the paperwork that designated me a homeowner left me with no feelings what so ever. Perhaps that is part of growing up and adulting. Perhaps, the joy of new things fades away as you grow up and make transactions to enrich your life. Perhaps I am over taxed. It has been a very stressful few weeks. Maybe in time it will dawn on me that I am Mistress of the Manor. I will admit that this isn’t my dream house. It was a way to afford living here. A transaction. However, this house I will make into a home. My home. That in itself is quiet impressive. And really if the cats are happy what else needs to be done?!
Steadfastness is a hard skill to have anywhere. To have the stamina to make it a day is hard enough but to make it through a month of midnights, or a year recovering from an injury, or a lifetime commitment. These things never get easier. However, we must make it through any way we can. So when you are feeling out of breath remember it is more mental then physical to get through. Make your mind strong and you will win any race.
So I have just worked 10 days straight (on mids) and an extra 8 hours of OT. Needless to say my brain is a bit fried. On top of all that working I have been prepping for a move. Been a busy couple weeks. While it would be easy to get run down and cranky I have worked hard to keep a positive mindset. It has been what has gotten me through this month. So when you have a busy few days, weeks, months remember your outlook is what makes or break it.
My life could be easily be described at tumultuous. I have moved 2,000 miles in November, to a place I have never been to. I have been house hunting and preparing to be evicted from my current home. (Because the lady that just bought the home I am renting it is moving into it.) Getting used to a new work environment and co-workers. I have taken three trips since I got here in November. On top of all that, the constant drama with my mother has really started to weigh on the camel’s back.
I have been encouraged to go see someone. While this seems ridiculous because there are so many other’s in need. I did decide to see someone. It has been very positive. She seemed to understand the situation immediately. I have a new understanding of the difference between logical reasoning and emotional reasoning. I have new ways of detecting and reacting to these situations.
Regardless how well you have a situation handled, there is always room for a second opinion. This person might have a train of thought or a technique you might not have even realized was an option. There are many free clinics out there that can give you some guidance. Never say that your problems are worth some guidance. Everyone can use a helping hand.
So often I find myself lagging toward the end of Winter. I have a decent excuse with all that has happened in the last six months. However, I know we all get wore out as the cold continues. Keep in mind that this is the final push to Spring. And then Summer. It is the last stretch of the race. This analogy works for whatever is happening in your life. Things do pass, we just need to out last them.