I have these random keepsakes that I have been given over the years. They are probably not worth a cent. However, they are my most precious items. A small glittery deer, a rabbit that my mom painted my name on, a picture of us together. These random things probably look weird all displayed but that is ok. Its good to have keepsakes to remind you that life is still moving around you. Take time to keep the past close otherwise you will never learn from it.
I believe we all have emptiness inside us. We all have this space we try to fill up. Some fill it with toys, work, sex, whatever we can. Some days I feel my emptiness more then others. However, I realize this emptiness is normal. It happens to us all. Doesnt mean there is anything wrong with us. So many are too quick to medicate, legally or illegally. I am not saying ignore a real serious problem. But there are many normal human conditions that we just have to live with. Embrace your humanity, to include the sucky parts.
I talk a lot about kindness and being kind. I should also talk about what kindness really is. I didn’t know what good kindness was for many years. True kindness is an action that doesn’t cause you undo burden. For example, I use to spend a lot of my time and money being kind to other people. I thought the more money I gave and the more inconvenient it was meant I was being “kind.” In reality kindness is giving when you would or could have walked away. Sometimes money or time is involved but it doesn’t leave you destitute. Make sure you practice healthy kindness!
After being away for 10 days my cats have been really affectionate. The really are cuddle-y and more loving then normal. Really it feels great to come back to all that warmth. Also makes me realize how much we need/want each other. I am sure we all overlook some aspect of our lives, whether alive or not, that we can only appreciate more once we come back from a separation. Separation is good. Of course, you have to be mindful of what you are missing or missing you to really appreciate it.
It has been a long couple weeks. I have been in a daze. I am sure it is just the change of season. I feel very weighty, very tired. Perhaps it is that I have so much to do and no real will to start in on the pile. I am sure I will find my feet soon. In case you think this only happens to you, it doesn’t. It happens to us all.
Oh Spring. Everything is trying to burst alive all at once. Many of our local rivers have left their bank behind for wider territory of the lower land around them. This should be a sure sign to all of us of the renewal of life. Sometime it is powerful and breaks it banks sometimes it is quiet like a pushing seedling through soil. But it comes and we all must be aware.
I am not sure if he really said this. However, it is a fantastic thing to keep in mind. If you feel drained look at who is taking all your energy and make sure you are recharging to full.