I have a co-worker that is in between rentals right now and is staying in my spare room. I am often told that this action is a great kindness and is above and beyond the norm. However, I don’t believe it is such a great act. If we are to spend so much time at our job why not treat it like you would extended family. If my sister was between homes, of course, I would offer for her to stay (more likely she would just show up) and so why not do that with someone I spend most of my time with. Now I am not saying to go outside your comfort area. We all have those Crazy Uncle type coworkers. It shouldn’t be considered anymore extraordinary then bringing in food or giving someone a ride to work. It is a kindness…and in the end only kindness matters.
It has been a long couple weeks. I have been in a daze. I am sure it is just the change of season. I feel very weighty, very tired. Perhaps it is that I have so much to do and no real will to start in on the pile. I am sure I will find my feet soon. In case you think this only happens to you, it doesn’t. It happens to us all.
Oh Spring. Everything is trying to burst alive all at once. Many of our local rivers have left their bank behind for wider territory of the lower land around them. This should be a sure sign to all of us of the renewal of life. Sometime it is powerful and breaks it banks sometimes it is quiet like a pushing seedling through soil. But it comes and we all must be aware.
Today I am not very strong. My mind is running wild and my emotions are close to the surface. I would rather stay in bed and not deal with the world. It happens; days like these. To everyone, even the strongest. That is ok. You just make it through to another day, another moment. One of them will bring you back to your center. This is not a time to give up but to push through. You can do it. I can do it. We can make it.
Have you ever had the shock of accepting something you were against before? It doesn’t necessary have to be something you were dead set against but something you maybe didn’t approve of or agree with. Then something changes in you and then that thing isn’t so bad. It has recently happened to me. It wasn’t a big issue or something life shattering but I feel off balanced. Like that last step I expected but it wasn’t there or when you see the 3D picture in the chaos of imagines. I had a friend tell me that knowledge is a diamond. Each facet holds wonders and you must turn the diamond to get all the information.
Embrace the new information. The problem happens when you shun or try to pretend the knowledge didn’t change you. This change doesn’t have to deal with facts. It could be an emotional thing. Like the moment when you realized that two people you know are closer then you thought. Or a character was the good guy all along.
I am not sure what to do with this new emotion and feeling. I am going to have to rethink everything! It will take time getting used to. But until then I will continue to explore these things and not shy away from change.
In case you have no idea what I am talking about here is a picture of Skittle Chicks. (These are chicks that are dyed in the shell and come out colored. Later they molt and look like normal chickens.)
So last week I went to a Bible Study group at a friends house. I was a little underwhelmed at the content and interaction. I was disappointed, more in my expectation or hope then anything else. That is ok. The thing is I went. If you have something you want to try and it doesn’t work out-that means you actually tried something. Its a good thing. If you don’t try you will never know. This can be as simple as trying new food, app, or going to a new store. You might surprise yourself and find something you really enjoy.
Well it is done. I have signed and moved into my new house. I must say that didn’t get any warm fuzzy feelings. I remember when I bought my first horse, I almost fainted with excitement. When my brother graduated I cried with joy. However, the signing of the paperwork that designated me a homeowner left me with no feelings what so ever. Perhaps that is part of growing up and adulting. Perhaps, the joy of new things fades away as you grow up and make transactions to enrich your life. Perhaps I am over taxed. It has been a very stressful few weeks. Maybe in time it will dawn on me that I am Mistress of the Manor. I will admit that this isn’t my dream house. It was a way to afford living here. A transaction. However, this house I will make into a home. My home. That in itself is quiet impressive. And really if the cats are happy what else needs to be done?!