Its been a very stressful week. In the midst of it all I am trying to stay positive and focused. It’s not easy. We all must work to “be in the storm but not affected by it.” I heard this phrase in a speech give by a police chief. While his statement was nearly lost in the longevity of his presentation it is, none the less, wise words.
It has been about two weeks since my move to Maine. The road trip went well enough. The move-in was alright. The house has some really narrow stairs. I have a huge mess in the trailer I really should organize it. In the back of my mind, it’s annoying me. I am starting to get my barrings at work. There are some interesting polices that will take a bit to get used to.
I was very hopeful in finding a place that I could purchase. Then I would have my own place to leave my stuff. Yes, we all want a place to store our stuff while we go and get more stuff. The few places I looked at were just not going to work. I had a moment of frustration and a knee-jerk reaction to bail on everything. To wallow in self pity and go down a dark path. Well, that lasted a day and then I pulled up my big girl pants.
So, I am going to go house hunting and see if there is anything worth making into my home. I am going to get settled into work. Hopefully, I can get word about when I will be heading overseas for a temporary posting. Certainly, makes it easier to plan if I know where things are going to fall. I am going to go to my brother’s graduation. And be a proud big sister.
Next year is gonna kick ass!
Keep an open mind. It is hard to do no matter how strong you are. You plan and plan for things to work out and when things are slow to bloom it is easy to get frustrated or discouraged. So keep an open mind and stay strong!
I have felt very meek recently. I have be struggling to be strong and full. It takes courage to fight yourself. In our world today where we are bombarded with so much falseness being strong for yourself is hard. However, that is what is most needed in today’s world. Lots of courage and strength. It will never be easy to force yourself to stand up and stop the world from walking all over you. But take the time because it is important. Find your inner strength and roar!
The hardest prison to escape is the mind.
I have been thinking a lot about mental strength lately. You keep hearing all these cases about anxiety. Please, don’t get me wrong. I know there are many valid diagnoses of anxiety however, I don’t feel like everyone who claims to have the illness is truly ill. I have bouts of anxiety but I work through it. I don’t let it overcome me. I am worried we are not teaching our children how to deal with anxiety correctly.
I had a lady on my flight back from Orlando who was nearly violent with her flying anxiety. She thrashed and cried and was very aggressive to her companion. I, seated next to her, had to hold her hand and explain to her that the sounds and actions were normal for a flight. Instead of her taking control of her mind she let it over power her. She let her mind take control and affect everyone around her. Now, I do not like turbulence. I become very nervous and anxious. However, I never let my mind take control. I grab a firm hold of myself and do not allow my mind to control my actions. This seems a normal way of things to me. Otherwise anyone with any action that is outside of their comfort zone would result in chaos.
I recently re-read Hatchet. It’s a story about a young boy who survived a plane crash in the Canadian Wilderness. Throughout his 2 months lost in the woods many times he could have let his fear and despair incapacitate him. Through mental strength he survived and prospered. This was required reading when I was in school but if it isn’t perhaps it is to us to teach our children to have mental strength. It is our best asset and least used muscle. We need to exercise and develop our minds as we would our bodies. It is vital to our future. Be strong in body, heart, and MIND!
I am scared, or rather I could be scared. I am going to a foreign country, by myself, with no other contact then the tour group I am using. I will be gone about two weeks traveling in a country who’s personal believes are far different from my own. I have every right to be scared.
“I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain.” –Frank Herbert: Dune
It really hit me a couple of days ago what I was going to do. This trip is a huge undertaking. However, instead of panicking I reminded myself all the hours of research that has gone into this trip. Hours researching the tour group, the culture, the language, food, etc. I have probably spent more time researching then I will be on my trip. That is OKAY! In fact, that is perfect. By giving myself all the information I can find, I will be able to enjoy the trip. Now thinking of this trip I feel only excitement and the normal anxiety that comes with traveling.
I feel that more people should put the time and effort into learning about their goals and adventures. Perhaps if we had more information at our disposal we would make better judgment calls. It also helps to have an open mind too and a willingness to experience the world around you.
So as I board my plane to fly to Morocco keep in mind that I probably wont be able to post a whole bunch or respond to comments. However, I will post pictures asap. Send me happy thoughts and prayers as I embark on this most excellent adventure.