Late Night Musings


All too often we get caught up in our own little world. We forget the world doesn’t revolve around us. We forget to take a moment and be part of our surroundings.  My day in and out is work and home and work. Paying bills and looking for things I want.  What time do I take with thoughts on others? Or for that matter what times does others think of others? Do you worry about your pocket or do you leave yourself behind and put others first? Often times, I’ve noticed, when all we think about is ourselves we tend to mes it up. We screw over our friends and family for our own gain. But in the end we never get ahead.

Which of you by taking thought can add one cubit unto his stature? And why take you thought for clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow; they toil not, neither do they spin:



Sunday Meditations


The winter season sees a lot of loss. The trees and greens things hide and many animals try to sleep it out. There is also a culling of the human population. Winter is very hard on the elderly. So for those who have love ones who might struggle to make it through the winter, spend time with them. In fact, spend time with all your love ones. We never know how many breathes we have left. Spend them with friends and family.

Diary of Jane

I am here.  Where we once were together.  Its been so long I didn’t think I would think of you. But the memories come flooding in.  I’m near to drowning.  To take a breath is to risk a rise in the water.
I was at the place we spent long nights and early mornings. Your ghost haunted me as I walked the streets. Your words were whispered on the breeze. If I look just right you are silhouetted in the setting sun. I called your name.

I met someone who lives where you do. Or where you once did. Being near to them made you near. Do you feel my presence? Do you know how close I am standing?  I can touch you.

After so long how you torment me still. The miss of your touch, your voice, your smell makes me weak and near to dieing. We shall never see each other again. However, in my memories you will never die.  You are now immortal, sucking my life from me.

Sunday Meditations


I was in the lunch room and a co-worker randomly mentioned to me that “life is hell.” I asked if it was all parts of life or something specific. I was told it was here at work. It got me thinking. I was thinking about how we perceived our environment and how it affects us. I was going to tell him about focusing on the good but I knew it wouldn’t do any good. This person always complains about how life is so horrible. I agree that our work environment is quite poor and it is, in part, our fault letting it get this bad. However, you can change your situation. You are not a tree. You can move; to another place, situation, or mindset. It is possible. It takes compromises and work but it can be done. I was quite miserable a few months ago but I worked to change the situation. It is some you have to work toward. So if you feel that your life is hell…. Change it!!! You have that ability. It might not be a perfect change and it might not be immediate. Don’t be miserable because you don’t want to make the effort.


Sunday Meditations



Acceptance of others and yourself isn’t an easy thing. It is difficult to accept your current place in the world. We all want bigger and better things and quite often we want the things other people have. The hardest part is just been content with what you have at this present moment. To not get caught up in the wants and desires of all those around you. If you can accept yourself it will be easier to move on in life. You might not be where you want to be but for this moment that is ok and work towards your goals. Keep that in mind when you pine after things you don’t have. It will change the way you act towards everyone around you.




Today out of the blue the person who I consider as my ex-wife texted me. She asked after me and told me she missed me. She told me I was her everything; with out me she was nothing. And as any heart sore person knows this was water to a desert.  I couldn’t tell her how much it hurt to talk about these things.  How much I wondered if she was missing our friendship or just my company. As we talked more I began to wonder what these words mean to her. They must mean something different to me.  Where do I fit in? Does she understand my feelings? Do I? It isn’t an easy thing. Humans are so poor in communication. No promises were made and we left things as they are. I never really thought I would feel this way about another person especially a girl. (For more about her click here) I am at a loss for what to do. I suppose the best thing is to carry on as always until something different happens.

Sunday Meditation


In this crazy world that we live in it is so hard to remain humble. It is something I have always struggled with. I know the more humble I stay the better choices I make and the less drama in my life. If I could go back to my younger self that is something I would tell me. Remain humble. If we could all be a little more humble I feel that the world would be a bit brighter.